Oh, Bea. I wish this was going better. But I'm an optimist, so I'm putting my silver dollar in the live birth pool. Why the hell not?

I'm a worse case senario type of person, by experience :( so I'll put a penny in if it helps you cope better :) I hope I'm wrong!

I'm going to be the insane optimist here and focus on the rising beta. I'm taking the live birth odds. Take care, Bea.

I'm trying to think of what the right thing to say is... and there really isn't anything that's the right thing to say.

I'm betting a cool twenty grand on you, Bea.

Oh Bea, I'm sorry. Anything but this.

There was a time when I'd be sending you lots of shiny silver dollars and be very optimistic. Now I'm a cynical bitch. If you're not going to get that then I'm hoping it's a chemical because I really really really don't want anyone going through ectopics.

Thinking of you and hoping you can hold on until Friday which must seem eons away right now.

Oh, Bea. This sucks. At least you still have your sense of humour.

So sorry you're going through this. I'd like to hope you're wrong about it all and that you will have a very happy ending in 9 months - but I'm also not one to be too pollyanna either. But I guess it doesn't hurt to hope, does it? Hang in there.

I will stay optimistic, I will throw a buck your way.
I hope friday comes around quickly for you.

Stay strong.

I don't gamble anymore, I cheat. Have you considered either demanding another Beta before friday, or pulling a stunt like mine during one very early adventure, which was faking serious screaming agony in the uterine area, and begging in my clinic for an ultrasound to rule out an ectopic?

At this stage I actually have my first ultrasound to rule them out. (Endo and adhesions put me at risk, so I insist now instead of faking.) You won't see a heartbeat, but a sac will be there, and you can feel a small sense of relief in one area.

Yes, this tactic makes me scum...I'll join a self-help group when I'm finished IF treatment one day, K?

Oh Bea... as much as I like to be an optimist I've been where you are and I know how un-fun it is. I'm all for cheating, Friday is too long to wait.

Take it easy.

I'm a natural pessimist, so I'm holding my breath in suspense here.

Like Aurelia, I say cheat.

I so wish that it wasn't happening like this for you x

I'm so sorry it wasn't a nice high beta, but I'm stubborn, I'll hold out hope that it still works out for you!

Also having had only one + beta, and that one being a chemical, I have an idea how badly this sucks.

Thinking of you, B.

Well Bea I don't have a shiny silver dollar, but will a battered & used gold one do? Tomorrow is a public holiday, so if Aust Post does it's job, you should get it by Friday.

Praying that it's good news for you.

i realize this is not at all helpful, but i'd just like to say this is the best post title of all time. i'm rooting for no visits to hell in the foreseeable future.

I'm sorry sweetie. It doesn't look good does it? I bloody hate this hanging-on-with-no-hope-really-but-actually-you-can't-help-hoping-just-a-little-tiny-bit kind of situations. They suck big hairy ones. Thinking of you.

The fat lady getting up to her old tricks? Well I hope she chokes! Going to pray and hope for you, as you have for me in the past when I could not do it for myself.

It sucks how much of this ART stuff is a gamble. All of it, really.

I'm going to keep hoping, even though the odds are crappy, stranger things have happened...

Sorry that you are in such limbo, though.

Oh Bea, sorry I've only seen this now! First of all congrats on the positive, even though its low. I'm sitting here hoping it goes the right way for you guys and also that you don't have to wait until Friday to know whats happening. Why oh why can't this be easier?? Hugs Bea. I'm thinking of you okay!