On this day, in IVF/ICSI#1, I was in hospital with OHSS, having been admitted through emergency on the previous evening. By contrast, this time around I am planning to do some study and maybe pop into town later on for an embryo transfer. It's enough, apparently, to cause one to have a giant emotional breakdown lasting most of Sunday.

And I thought I was doing so well. Most of it seems to have been empty bravado.

I think I'm ok again now.

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**Update - It's Twins!!!**
Yeeeessss.... earlier on, for a brief moment, we all started getting a little ahead of ourselves. Six of our embryos made it through the weekend, two of which were top-notch, with the rest only slightly behind. All were compacting. FS took a chance to review our single vs double transfer decision, but we went ahead with two for the astoundingly good reason that "we're getting a bit bored with all this now" (I believe were my exact words).

Caution to the wind? I prefer "calculated risk". The most likely outcome, after all, is still a negative, and as for the other options... well, we'll just have to wait and see how the dice roll. Fuckdamnit.

Meanwhile, I have started clexane - which doesn't hurt nearly as much as I remember it doing - and crinone. I have already been asked when my next flyday is. Mr Bea will be leaving for "home" at the end of this week, and I will be joining him at the end of next. Beta will be in Singapore. Kind of breaks up the wait, dontcha think?

Which reminds me - seven sleeps til I start the last Potter book! Now that's something I am fairly sure in is my future.


28 Comments

Bumble said...

Hey Bea! Great Fert Results, I hope you're feeling better now, the stress just builds up sometimes doesn't it? Hang in there, I have a good feeling about this one! Good luck for today! x

My Reality said...

I hope that this cycle will be your cycle. Look at how different it was from the last fresh cycle. Congrats on avoiding OHSS.

Jess said...

Great fertilization! Geesh, that's fantastic! I hope that this is IT for you, Bea. I really really do.

Thalia said...

Being no stranger to giant emotional breakdowns, I do empathise. I'm glad you're feeling a bit better now, things do look like they are going well.

blondie said...

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millie said...

I think a breakdown before the transfer is just the ticket. I hope you have an easy transfer and better memories of this date from this year forward.

Thinking of you.

Beagle said...

The combination of high hormone + high stress levels = meltdowns. What I remember being hardest about them was how much they caught me off guard each time.

I'm glad today is better and what great news! Two lovelies transfered back to you. I hope one or both are settling in nicely!

Samantha said...

It's tough to play those odds, I think transferring two sounds reasonable (although in the US, the doctors tend to be more aggressive with the ETs).

I think all cycles need to have at least one breakdown. It's just par for the course.

Vee said...

Your embryos have been in my thoughts and I am so glad they have been behaving themselves and YAY for twins !

Sometimes it all builds up and can be very overwhelming no matter how well you think are doing. I hope the good cry helped.

Sounds like you are going to have very busy 2 weeks, the only way to make the time fly.

TeamWinks said...

Sounds great!!!

Ellen K. said...

Looking good, Bea! Good luck!

Reproductive Jeans said...

Sounds like nothing but good things...I have been thinking about you--glad the fert report is so good=)

Nica said...

fingers crossed...

Adrienne said...

Wishing you the very best of luck, Bea.

Pamela Jeanne said...

Sounds like Sunday was rough. Glad you made it through to Monday. Twins? Hey that's great. They can keep each other company ;-)

Schatzi said...

Good news! And as far as I am concerned, becoming bored with all this is a perfectly good reason to transfer two :-). Hoping your 2ww flies by...

soralis said...

Just catching up! Wishing you the best and good luck

SaraS-P said...

Hey, I'm still going with the theory that reading the final Potter book magically brought on implantation, so read away!

I am hoping for your own Fred and George Weasley!

Jess said...

I'm so glad to hear that things look so good still!!

Last cycle we were tired of things and transferred THREE good embies. And we only ended up pg with a singleton. So you'll probably be fine.

I say probably because we have friends with triplets from a 2-embryo transfer! :)

Lots of luck to you!!!

megan said...

i can't think of a better reason to transfer two! :) i'm so glad things are progresing so well. the improvement over your last cycle alone must feel terrific.

GLouise said...

Hoping that this will be it for you!

Matthew M. F. MIller said...

Great! Wow, this is so amazing. Good luck with HP7!

Lut C. said...

Calculated risk, eh? I hope you're singing out 'it's twins!' for a long time to come. :-)

Sarah said...

wonderful, it all sounds really good. and lucky you to have all those 2ww distractions!

The Town Criers said...

I hope they both stick around. Bea with twins :-)

And that you enjoy Potter. I just finished last night so feel free to email as you're reading.

Changing Expectations said...

Good luck today Bea. I am thinking about you.

Portia P said...

Well done Bea! Glad the twins are resting safely inside you.

Sorry i've only just got to comment on this excellent cycle. I HAVE been keeping up but when I went to comment the other day we had a massive power cut and our internet went down.

The meltdowns do hit you when you least expect it. I think they're bound to happen with what we're going through. They're like a release valve helping us get through all of this.

I really hope this is IT for you xx

Patience said...

You are hilarious - I hope that the twins get so engrossed in Harry Potter with you that they stick around for a loooong time!!

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