"Congratulations! You're pregnant!" I exhale slowly, tilting my head back and closing my eyes against welling tears of joy.
"You're pregnant!" I laugh. It explodes from my lungs and richochets around the room.
"Congratulations!" I am seized with anxiety. This is only the beginning... the full weight of all that could still go wrong descends upon me.
"You're pregnant - how exciting!" I agree, then return to my work, unmoved by the revelation.
"Good news! It worked!" I feel like a traitor to all those who wished me luck on my journey, and got left behind in the world of AC.
"It's positive, but only just..." I feel a sense of desperate fear well up inside me.
"You're probably pregnant...." I feel confused, upset.
"It's negative. I'm so sorry." I nod complacently. It's not really news to me.
"Oh honey - you're not pregnant." The disappointment envelops me, cutting off my air.
"I'm afraid you'll be trying again next month." I can smile again. The uncertainty is over.
"Hello Bea? Yes, let me find your results...."
Two days to go.
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Dam it ! You got me excited there for a minute...then I was really confused What are you doing to me ? LOL
Almost there, I hope the first scenario is the way it ends.
Good Luck Bea !
You've done the hard yards. You will never be traitor. The uncertainty is a killer. But the day is almost here.
Good luck.
...Good to be prepared for all the eventualities... Thinking of you.
OMG that was probably the most stressful post i have ever read! and so so so true. thanks for putting it in writing!
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