tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post1902891867782961722..comments2023-08-26T01:04:43.031+10:00Comments on Infertile Fantasies: After this, the lightBeahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11877513815828460269noreply@blogger.comBlogger31125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-46503335845830036782007-05-10T12:19:00.000+10:002007-05-10T12:19:00.000+10:00Thinking of you cause I KNOW that your good karma ...Thinking of you cause I KNOW that your good karma is just around the corner....JJhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18027548058304720360noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-9283054829507809882007-05-10T11:18:00.000+10:002007-05-10T11:18:00.000+10:00Dreams are so vivid sometimes. That one was a doo...Dreams are so vivid sometimes. That one was a doooosey! I hope that you are feeling better and that only good dreams show up from here on out!Changing Expectationshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10175429623370829712noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-70453994171524021142007-05-10T08:13:00.000+10:002007-05-10T08:13:00.000+10:00It's a very sad dream. But probably not so far of...It's a very sad dream. But probably not so far off from what so many of us have felt at our lowest points - your subconcious is just a little better at articulating these feelings. But I think it has articulated something that is very normal to feel when you've been through so much pain.<BR/><BR/>Depression can make you feel physically ill. I think this is normal, and what you are feeling is normal.<BR/><BR/>I know you're not ok. But you are right - you will be ok. You will.Carolhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11168704988026789910noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-30741172075702930202007-05-10T01:52:00.000+10:002007-05-10T01:52:00.000+10:00you're not cursed. Not at all. I just hope that yo...you're not cursed. Not at all. <BR/><BR/>I just hope that your journey out to the light is a short one, one that filled with peace and sense of trying again. <BR/><BR/>I am so sorry that you are going through this but I do hope that light is shining very bright and leading you back.Kirhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17894442143508446312noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-72277614943396755322007-05-09T12:22:00.000+10:002007-05-09T12:22:00.000+10:00Hi,Your post brought me to instant tears. I wish ...Hi,<BR/>Your post brought me to instant tears. I wish I had something witty or comforting to say, but I don't. All I can say is that IF sucks. You are a trooper beyond my own understanding. I am glad that the dream, rather nightmare, is over. Or is it? I guess the nightmare of IF doesn't ever end, even when we get to experience those brief moments of bliss. Please know that you have really been in my thoughts and prayers lately. I'm. simply. sorry! <BR/><BR/>((((((HUGS))))))ak1908https://www.blogger.com/profile/14116288864001787561noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-50766283462989562322007-05-09T10:27:00.000+10:002007-05-09T10:27:00.000+10:00All of this just totally sucks. There are no words...All of this just totally sucks. There are no words to help you feel better. It just sucks sucks sucks. <BR/><BR/>I have felt the support system getting smaller in my life. It just stinks. <BR/><BR/>HUGS! Sorry I have nothing cheery for you. I know what that rock bottom feels like.Sunnyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14570018200281339937noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-64271839799822621642007-05-09T03:10:00.000+10:002007-05-09T03:10:00.000+10:00OMG!! You are going through so much. And that dr...OMG!! You are going through so much. And that dream suggests that you blame yourself for everything that has happened to you. Bea, it breaks my heart. You are a wonderful person who certainly does not deserve this.<BR/><BR/>Have you considered seeing a therapist? It sounds like you could use some help getting out of that depressed hole that you are in.<BR/><BR/>You will be in my thoughts!LIW (Lady In Waiting)https://www.blogger.com/profile/06199047053421154823noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-66547368738502221302007-05-09T02:33:00.000+10:002007-05-09T02:33:00.000+10:00Bea, I have no idea why I called you Zee???? Perha...Bea, I have no idea why I called you Zee???? Perhaps fighting with WordPress till 2:00 AM Eastern had something to do with it. Apologies!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-78852993212182874272007-05-08T14:10:00.000+10:002007-05-08T14:10:00.000+10:00One day at a time. You are going to be ok, you ar...One day at a time. You are going to be ok, you are right.<BR/><BR/>Praying and hoping that ok comes soon.Jesshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05181924375187173030noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-54285761333145738152007-05-08T05:58:00.000+10:002007-05-08T05:58:00.000+10:00Oh Bea, I am so sorry about that dream. I hate wak...Oh Bea, I am so sorry about that dream. I hate waking up from those types of dreams. I seem to have them in waves, when things are weighing particularly heavy on my mind. You will see the light, I know you will!Somewhat Ordinaryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09701338805685025735noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-5788909832543468442007-05-08T05:50:00.000+10:002007-05-08T05:50:00.000+10:00Not glad that you had the dream, but glad that you...Not glad that you had the dream, but glad that you posted it. You're right--it is part of the record sort of in the same way that the photograph you didn't want to take months ago is part of the record too.Lollipop Goldsteinhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01020874415819057995noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-6563697417315097662007-05-08T05:12:00.000+10:002007-05-08T05:12:00.000+10:00I'm sorry you've hit rock bottom, I can only hope ...I'm sorry you've hit rock bottom, I can only hope you will continue to climb up out of it. Your dream sounds terrible. Please take care of yourself and blog or not blog as you need to.Samanthahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02799401502134619497noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-73789062630250626092007-05-08T04:12:00.000+10:002007-05-08T04:12:00.000+10:00Another blogger has just posted about feeling curs...Another blogger has just posted about feeling cursed. http://infertilitysux.blogspot.com/2007/05/xematiasma.html<BR/><BR/>I can imagine how blogland would lose it's charm. It's like participating in a succession of drawing straws. <BR/>Drawing the short straw of IF in the first place is painful enough, but repeatedly drawing the short straw among infertiles is heartbreaking, even when it's no one's fault. I'm sorry for your losses.Lut C.https://www.blogger.com/profile/03893061829410958985noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-53954876760912375612007-05-08T03:30:00.000+10:002007-05-08T03:30:00.000+10:00i'm glad you can see some light ahead. it can SO ...i'm glad you can see some light ahead. it can SO be hard to see it sometimes... the dream you describe is so vividly disturbing. i'm glad you feel you are moving forward. sorry to hear about your star...hopefully she comes around and starts being more sensitive soon.meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13867137276917406552noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-38722252006121435482007-05-08T02:44:00.000+10:002007-05-08T02:44:00.000+10:00Zee, First, I am not ascribing a curse / spiritual...Zee, First, I am not ascribing a curse / spiritual attack here. I think this was just a dream where you were trying to come to terms with feelings of despair.<BR/><BR/>Aurelia, technically you are right - however, each of the major, mainstream Christian religions I am well-versed in do ascribe to the idea of Spiritual Attack. And, let's face it, mankind is a rather superstitious lot. <BR/><BR/>You might be surprised how similar the advice would be if you corner your minister/priest/rabbi/imam about this - or the elder women you know. The variations would be religion specific, but pretty much the same. Salt is always an ingredient - even in holy water (which has oil in it as well). Sage might be a specific incense specific to your ethnic/relgious group. The drum might turn into bells or specific prayers being chanted.<BR/><BR/>I in no way ascribe an actual curse here, but, sometimes if you do <B>something</B> it just helps bring you back to your center. I know that dream would disturb me. <BR/><BR/>Zee, you just have to know that no one can curse you. Life is, unfortunately, just life - and sometimes it sucks. <BR/><BR/>I always reread the Book of Job when I start feeling sorry for myself. I figure that if a righteous man as Job was described can have that much bad stuff happen to him, who am I to object what comes to me? And, at least I am not expected to take on the sins of the world! (It may seem I'm being flippant, but I'm not.)<BR/><BR/>Pax,<BR/><BR/>MLOAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-29355596297790876492007-05-08T00:29:00.001+10:002007-05-08T00:29:00.001+10:00Moments like that are so painful, and I'm so happy...Moments like that are so painful, and I'm so happy you've found your way out.<BR/><BR/>Sadly, these moments won't go away, but if you can learn from them, and learn how to deal with them, each time they will get a little shorter in duration. They will never get easier, but brevity can be success.<BR/><BR/>Thinking of you...Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-31923233826849582122007-05-08T00:29:00.000+10:002007-05-08T00:29:00.000+10:00There is no such thing as being cursed. In ANY mai...There is no such thing as being cursed. In ANY mainstream religion, including Christianity.<BR/><BR/>You are not cursed, human beings, aka Drs. have failed you. I do agree with the pp who said that dreams are where the leftover dirty laundry goes. And I think you have some in there.<BR/><BR/>You do not deserve any of this. You aren't your infertiity, and I hope you know that this is not your fault.<BR/><BR/>As for the ill feeling, while it may be grief, if it continues, please see a Doc and make them check you out, just in case.Aureliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13691032415028867902noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-3664075110140840342007-05-07T23:55:00.000+10:002007-05-07T23:55:00.000+10:00Oh Bea, I can only imagine that I know how you fee...Oh Bea, I can only imagine that I know how you feel. I am waiting for the light too. <BR/><BR/>What a distressing dream! Hopefully the telling of it here was a purging of sorts in a way.beaglehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17627886826215379414noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-48929695836948743772007-05-07T23:22:00.000+10:002007-05-07T23:22:00.000+10:00Anything that is loud and you pound will work. Th...Anything that is loud and <I>you</I> pound will work. The idea is that the loud noises drive the evil spirits away. Bells also work - and can be much more pleasant sounding. It just needs to be a percussive instrument.<BR/><BR/>Most of these practices are simply means to focus "faith" (I put it in quotes since I know people from all kinds of "faith" backgrounds suffer from this awful affliction.)<BR/><BR/>Pax,<BR/><BR/>MLOAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-1812960831043896052007-05-07T23:00:00.000+10:002007-05-07T23:00:00.000+10:00What an awful dream.I am so glad that feeling has ...What an awful dream.<BR/><BR/>I am so glad that feeling has passed and things are looking up. I sort of feel cursed too. Maybe I will take some of MLOs advice. I wonder if anyone has a drum that I could borrow...Mary Ellen and Stevehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09192652589445635157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-12314705731278358132007-05-07T22:08:00.000+10:002007-05-07T22:08:00.000+10:00I HATE INFERTILITY. I hate everything about it. ...I HATE INFERTILITY. I hate everything about it. I especially hate how it makes us women feel. It's not right that a woman such as yourself feel this way. Your too amazing to feel that you are cursed. Hmmm...I guess I need to go and get you a drum, eh?TeamWinkshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00750935087962085588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-19008269596963272092007-05-07T19:12:00.000+10:002007-05-07T19:12:00.000+10:00what a dream! i've been having some pretty insane ...what a dream! i've been having some pretty insane ones myself lately.<BR/>hope you're feeling better.The Momcasterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05283267567888779290noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-75553265862924892932007-05-07T18:26:00.000+10:002007-05-07T18:26:00.000+10:00Horrible dream! I'm glad you're feeling better. Ha...Horrible dream! I'm glad you're feeling better. Happy thoughts before bedtime ok.<BR/><BR/>I believe in karma. So if we do good, maybe this bad stuff will be neutralized somehow. Your good karma is on its way Bea. I just know it.Baby Blueshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09283845137728737575noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-68066351188592304212007-05-07T18:04:00.000+10:002007-05-07T18:04:00.000+10:00I hope you can begin the long climb back to the li...I hope you can begin the long climb back to the light.<BR/><BR/>xxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25184159.post-81009549079348754912007-05-07T17:57:00.000+10:002007-05-07T17:57:00.000+10:00What an upsetting dream Bea....I, too, feel cursed...What an upsetting dream Bea....<BR/><BR/>I, too, feel cursed - and can't help but wonder what kind of karma all this must be??Mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00433861868469484062noreply@blogger.com